My Baby Boy……

We were up at the hospital all morning. They ended up switching the procedure and instead of a sedated MRI we went and had a sedated CT Scan with contrast. The reason, they explained, was because with the MRI they would have to make him stop breathing for 3 minutes and with the CT Scan they would only need to make him stop breathing for 30 seconds. They needed the lungs to be still for the scan. They didnt tell me about having him stop breathing before we went in. Then they explained how there was a possibility that he might not start breathing again once they finished the scan and that they would have to force oxygen into him to get him breathing again. That just shot my anxiety level way up. I knew that there were risks with the sedation but I didnt know that they were going to make his breathing stop. While waiting in the hall during the scan, I was listening to the heart monitor and trying to hear everything they were saying. I think if my husband hadnt been there to keep me calm and focused, I might have lost it. There was one point when I heard them asking for the oxygen and to get the crash cart and be ready. At that point I wanted to run back through those doors, but I knew that was not a good idea. When the nurse came out to get us so we could help get him up, I was so relieved. Then, going in the CT room and seeing him still under sedation wasnt too easy. The nurse picked him up several times trying to wake him and his entire body was limp. I know it wasnt too long but I started to worry because the Dr kept telling them that they had to wake him up, he needed to see his eyes open. When he did finally wake up it was such a relief. I wanted them to hurry up and take out the IV’s so I could hold him. I am so glad the scan is done and I dont want to do that again. They did find what they were looking for and we will be back up at the hospital on Monday for his surgery. The mass they found is about 2 inches long and if it turns out that the mass is in the inside of his lung, there is a chance that they will have to remove his left lower lobe. God, please send angels to watch over him and give me the strength to keep it together. I know that my baby boy’s fate lies in your hands. I know that once the surgery is done and he has recovered, we can put this chapter of our lives behind us and he can be a normal little boy and be with and play with other kids.

39 Comments

  1. Megan
    August 19, 2010 / 10:54 pm

    Oh no. You are in my prayers.xoxoxoMeganMommy Minded

  2. Life with 5 dogs
    August 20, 2010 / 12:50 am

    You are in our thoughts and Prayers. Kisses and Hugs for your little baby boy. God BlessYour Friend from Life with 5 Dogs

  3. Kim
    August 20, 2010 / 1:19 am

    My heart and prayers go out to you and your family. As a mother I can't imagine what you are having to go through. God will guide you and your family:)

  4. Terri
    August 20, 2010 / 2:19 am

    I am a new follower and am sending many prayers your way!

  5. thechattymommy
    August 20, 2010 / 2:23 am

    Following you back and praying for you today and Monday!

  6. RenderMeMama
    August 20, 2010 / 3:02 am

    Much love to you and your family. My oldest had to have an MRI when he was five months old because they believed he had a tumor. It turned out to be okay though and I am sure that whatever the results are, your little Robert will be okay too. Being a parent is so hard sometimes. You just want to protect them from the world and all the evils but sometimes God has other plans. Just try to find peace in that and everything will be okay.

  7. Des
    August 20, 2010 / 3:16 am

    I hope all is well for your baby boy! 🙂 Love & Prayers for you & your family!Hello! So looking forward to reading more of your posts!…following you from FFF. Would ♥ to hear from you too.:)http://chicsassymom.blogspot.com

  8. Emily
    August 20, 2010 / 4:42 am

    I can't even imagine how scary that must have been. I will be sending out prayers for you and your little man. Hugs mama!!emilywww.familyandlifeinlv.com

  9. Judy
    August 20, 2010 / 4:45 am

    Hi! I will be praying for your little one. Im now following your blog.

  10. J. At Your Service
    August 20, 2010 / 4:55 am

    I am your newest follower! I am saying prayers for your adorable little boy and you tonight. My son had episodes where he passed out and went limp and I definitely know how you feel when you see your child like that! Ugh….heart breaking! But I'm sending positive vibes your way! Good luck with everything, can't wait to see the post about everything being OK! :)www.jatyourservice.blogspot.com

  11. Self Sagacity
    August 20, 2010 / 5:09 am

    Gees, I am so sorry. I will remember him in my prayers. Hope things are settling a bit for you. I followed you today from Friendly Friday.

  12. Miel Abeille
    August 20, 2010 / 5:09 am

    OMG! Sending you and your family prayers! (PS- Thanks for visiting me! I'm following now)

  13. Adriana
    August 20, 2010 / 6:54 am

    I work in healthcare and I know how hard it is to see any child especially your own in this situation. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

  14. Liz
    August 20, 2010 / 7:39 am

    I came here to follow you from FF and saw this post. I am so sorry. I've been through similar and it is hard.Lizwww.mydealfriends.blogspot.com

  15. Lolo @ Crazy About My Baybah
    August 20, 2010 / 8:44 am

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, your family, and your little boy. ::hugs::

  16. A.Rhodes
    August 20, 2010 / 11:19 am

    We are praying for your little man! I am following you back and extatic to find another Girl Scout mommy to share ideas with.

  17. Bonnie @ House of Grace
    August 20, 2010 / 11:49 am

    I am your newest follower and I will pray for your family!Bonnie 🙂

  18. Lindsay
    August 20, 2010 / 11:52 am

    Visiting and following from Follow Along Friday.You are one strong mama! Your family will be in my prayers.

  19. Ria Thurston
    August 20, 2010 / 12:15 pm

    WOW! Sounds more than eventful… yikes! Thank you for finding the time to visit me @ Life as a Wife! I am a new follower here too. Enjoy your weekend!

  20. Jennifer @ The Toy Box Years
    August 20, 2010 / 1:02 pm

    Visiting your blog for the first time today and I was so moved by your post!Praying for you and your family!

  21. Alicia D
    August 20, 2010 / 1:15 pm

    so scary. so difficult. you are showing strength as a mother for your child. i too have been through medical ups and downs with my first born (who is now 15). I can relate to what you are going through. stay strong. many prayers…

  22. DanniiBeauty
    August 20, 2010 / 2:09 pm

    Well done for being so strong! My prayers are with your family. Hoping it all works out well.

  23. Pris
    August 20, 2010 / 4:18 pm

    Thanks for the follow… I'm looking forward to reading more about your life. Thanks!

  24. Katrina
    August 20, 2010 / 6:35 pm

    I found your blog through Fun Follow Friday. I am glad tha I did, so I can now be another person prying for your son and your family! Katrinawww.proverbs-31-wife.blogspot.com

  25. Michelle
    August 20, 2010 / 9:57 pm

    Oh You guys are in my prayers.

  26. Melanie
    August 20, 2010 / 11:19 pm

    I have a daughter with a medical condition and food allergies. It is awful to see our kids in pain or go through procedures. I will say a pray for your child. Followed you from FFF. Would love to have you follow back. I have 2 giveaways going now with low entries. Would love to have you enter!sunshinepraises.blogspot.com

  27. Xenia
    August 21, 2010 / 11:47 am

    Oh, this post brought tears to my eyes! I will be keeping you both in my thoughts and I really hope it is all good news from here on out!(Stopping by to follow from Mommy Approved)http://www.thanksmailcarrier.com

  28. heather@actingbalanced.com
    August 21, 2010 / 1:11 pm

    Keeping your little guy and your family in my thoughts as you prepare for the procedure. Following you back from yesterday's blog hop… sorry it took so long to get here to visit

  29. Traci66
    August 21, 2010 / 1:45 pm

    My heart goes out to you and your family. I am glad to see you have the faith that God will look over Robert. You will be in my prayers.I found your blog via Surfin' Saturdays and decided to follow you. I hope you will come follow me too.http://traci66.blogspot.com/2010/08/surfin-saturday-gfc.html

  30. Nicole Bouchard Boles
    August 21, 2010 / 6:32 pm

    Praying for you and your sweet baby boy. Sending love and good thoughts your way.

  31. Deb K
    August 21, 2010 / 9:40 pm

    I am so sad to read this..Praying for all of you!I am now following you from Mommy Approved~You can find me here~http://debshere.blogspot.com/

  32. Five Star Frugalista
    August 21, 2010 / 10:06 pm

    Your family is in my prayers! Following via Sweet & Simple Saturday blog hop. Would love for you to follow back!http://www.frugalluxe.comDenise

  33. Kel
    August 22, 2010 / 12:04 am

    I am so sorry! I will keep your little one in my prayers. Thanks for joining us for Spotlight Saturday! We were very happy to have you stop by. Enjoy the rest of your weekend and swing by tomorrow for our Simple Sunday Twitter Hop if you get a chance!Kelwww.betweenthelines-kel.com

  34. luckydame
    August 22, 2010 / 5:50 am

    Praying for you and your son tonight. God Bless.

  35. LeeAnn
    August 22, 2010 / 2:26 pm

    I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through with your little boy. 🙁 Your family is in my thoughts. That must have been so hard watching that scan and everything that was involved, and it sounds like you were stronger than I would have been.Thanks for stopping by Relax & Surf Sundays. I am following back with GFC, and also with Twitter.

  36. Heather
    August 23, 2010 / 3:23 am

    Oh dear, I am praying for your little one. ((hugs))

  37. Laura Lane
    November 14, 2012 / 6:24 pm

    I feel so thankful. Like God, I am seeing the beginning from the end. God is incredibly kind and gracious and merciful in healing your child.

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